There's a first for everything...can you believe this is my first blog ever ladies!?!? Since my company blocked me from facebook and you tube, I'm using my precious time wisely by blogging ;). Anyway, as you know, these last couple weeks have been extremely hard for my family and I, especially with me. We lost a huge part of our family on April 30th. I still think about him every day and have cried every day since. No one ever told me that it would be this difficult. I mean, yes, he is a part of the family, but I never thought I would grieve this much for a pet. To think, when I was a child, I was scared of dogs. I really had a huge phobia. I remember I would run away or jump on the couch and cry just to get away from them. Man, I laugh every time I think about it.
It didn't really seem like it was my birthday either. It was just another day to me. Maybe because I was just so emotionally drained from all the crying or what, but the day really didn't phase me at all. Loosing Ag made me appreciate life and all that I have. I am very grateful to have the best friends that I do. I am very lucky to have the family that I do. I always tell myself that life is too short and to live it to the fullest. Sadly, I don't always live up to those words. I sometimes let the emotional, sad side of me take over. I start to contemplate my future...work, love, happiness etc... I question it all and I just get depressed. I know that God has a plan for me and for all of us, I just can't help but think the worse sometimes. I know, this is something I really need to work on...
To get my mind emotionally back on track to happiness...I have decided to tryout for Culture Shock's 25 and up hip hop group. Besides family and friends, dancing and music have always been my happiness. I have always had a passion for the arts and I think this is something I really need right now...
The days are getting better and I know it will get better in time...
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
One Word.........Vegas
One word…VEGAS
I and three other companions met with an old friend on April 16th his name is Vegas. Vegas and I have a lot hate relationship. I LOVE to visit him but hate the toll he does on the body. Let me be the first to say, “Thanks Diandra for driving.” The drive there wasn’t too bad but the nothing beats flying high in the air and sipping on 5 dollar cap cod and cheap peanuts. We cruised to Vegas listening to the fabulous tunes of Lady Gaga. I was riding shot gun; Cheryll and Janine riding in the back.
While we were driving Janine poked her head and front and asked Diandra “Is it raining?” Diandra and I looked at her and Diandra yelled, “Those are bugs hitting the windshield bitch!” If this was going to be an indication of the trip, I was ready for the crazy ride. Overall I had a great time! We went out one night but the club was too PACKED. I decided I am over clubs in vegas and would prefer to stay in my flipflops and drink on the strip. Cheryll went out Sunday night while we so drunkly(is that a word) ruled carnival court. If you come home, I SOOOO think we should all go to Vegas. I don’t think there has ever been a trip with all 5 of us
I and three other companions met with an old friend on April 16th his name is Vegas. Vegas and I have a lot hate relationship. I LOVE to visit him but hate the toll he does on the body. Let me be the first to say, “Thanks Diandra for driving.” The drive there wasn’t too bad but the nothing beats flying high in the air and sipping on 5 dollar cap cod and cheap peanuts. We cruised to Vegas listening to the fabulous tunes of Lady Gaga. I was riding shot gun; Cheryll and Janine riding in the back.
While we were driving Janine poked her head and front and asked Diandra “Is it raining?” Diandra and I looked at her and Diandra yelled, “Those are bugs hitting the windshield bitch!” If this was going to be an indication of the trip, I was ready for the crazy ride. Overall I had a great time! We went out one night but the club was too PACKED. I decided I am over clubs in vegas and would prefer to stay in my flipflops and drink on the strip. Cheryll went out Sunday night while we so drunkly(is that a word) ruled carnival court. If you come home, I SOOOO think we should all go to Vegas. I don’t think there has ever been a trip with all 5 of us
Monday, April 20, 2009
Flashbacks to a Lei Lounge Summer
So I was sitting in bed reading, trying to just relax before going to bed. I was listening to some music and my IPOD shuffled to my 80's playlist. Next thing I knew I was rocking out to Whitney's "I just wanna dance with somebody" and "Let's hear it for the boy" and Amber's favorite, deBarge. It sooooo made me miss you crazy girls trying to pick up gay men and the lei lounge and universal. I saw some pictures from Vegas - I want a recap!
I've been good here - kinda busy not with work, but just with trying to enjoy myself =) I only work mornings, and I just started classes with my Chinese tutor two days a week in the city. I've been flaking lately on my teaching yoga because I've been really tired, or because of holidays, or because I'm just not in. I spend half my time in actual Beijing, visiting my friends, or going out with my co-workers. I've also been trying to see different parts of the city I haven't seen yet, and I also just started my weekend job. I'm a test examiner for this one British standardized test (kinda like how people take the TOEFL if they want to study in an English-speaking country) and I administer the speaking portion. It's a lot of fun, fast-paced, and I earn some good money from it. And soon they'll start sending me to other cities in China on the weekends to do it. So that's exciting, and also eating up my time. And I just went to a job fair last Saturday as well, to try and line up a job for next school year. I'm definitely not staying in Changping (even though it's kinda nice and quiet - my friend and I went for a long bike ride here, and then went on a hike on Sunday), because I need to get away from teaching high school for a while. I never thought I'd miss the education system in the US and even standardized testing, but I do. So I'm gonna try and make my life easier by teaching university students or adults, which is what I'm applying for, and I have a few interviews this week already.
So that's what I've been up to. Having a blast here, but I do miss you. One of you needs to get a webcam and a mic so we can have a group chat sometime.
Oh! My parents are coming to visit me when they go to the Philippines in May. Could you guys do me a huge favor and burn some CD's? I miss being up to date with music! I'm in the process of acquiring fun gifts for you guys...he he.
besos,
patricia
I've been good here - kinda busy not with work, but just with trying to enjoy myself =) I only work mornings, and I just started classes with my Chinese tutor two days a week in the city. I've been flaking lately on my teaching yoga because I've been really tired, or because of holidays, or because I'm just not in. I spend half my time in actual Beijing, visiting my friends, or going out with my co-workers. I've also been trying to see different parts of the city I haven't seen yet, and I also just started my weekend job. I'm a test examiner for this one British standardized test (kinda like how people take the TOEFL if they want to study in an English-speaking country) and I administer the speaking portion. It's a lot of fun, fast-paced, and I earn some good money from it. And soon they'll start sending me to other cities in China on the weekends to do it. So that's exciting, and also eating up my time. And I just went to a job fair last Saturday as well, to try and line up a job for next school year. I'm definitely not staying in Changping (even though it's kinda nice and quiet - my friend and I went for a long bike ride here, and then went on a hike on Sunday), because I need to get away from teaching high school for a while. I never thought I'd miss the education system in the US and even standardized testing, but I do. So I'm gonna try and make my life easier by teaching university students or adults, which is what I'm applying for, and I have a few interviews this week already.
So that's what I've been up to. Having a blast here, but I do miss you. One of you needs to get a webcam and a mic so we can have a group chat sometime.
Oh! My parents are coming to visit me when they go to the Philippines in May. Could you guys do me a huge favor and burn some CD's? I miss being up to date with music! I'm in the process of acquiring fun gifts for you guys...he he.
besos,
patricia
Thursday, April 2, 2009
If Beyonce is Sasha Fierce then who am I?
There is 14 days until Vegas. I decided today I plan on acting a fool. I am leaving all morals, manners and underwear in San Diego. Good-bye and good riddens. There is no need for those items in Sin city. I vow to get Cheryll in a strip club, kiss a random hot guy and dance off beat.. I promise my makeup with ALWAYS look hot and my stilettos with be higher then a hooker on El Cajon BLVD. All I need is a fake name? Any Suggestions?
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Missing everyone - from Beijing
Yeah, I agree. This was an awesome idea and I'm surprised no one thought of it earlier.
Awww, little Sofia is getting so big now, going to school and everything else I'm missing. You need to post some pictures, Di, especially when you drop her off on her first day at school. And I forgot you guys were going to Vegas and I'm missing it AGAIN! BOOOOOOOO to that! Just promise me you wont fall asleep facedown on the bathroom floor at whatever hotel lobby bathroom you were in, or let someone suck your toes after eating chicken wings at Hooters after you've walked barefoot down the strip - that's just not hygenic. Give a kiss to the bartenders at Carnival Court for me, though, and you better win that booty shaking contest again.
Things have been good here. I have really been enjoying myself, actually trying to learn the language now, hanging out and exploring different parts of the city on the weekends, making pretty good money for doing almost nothing. Oh except I did get pissed off at some of my classes yesterday and said "fuck" in class. It happens. But yeah, Beijing is a great city, and I really do wish you guys could come visit sometime. And you actually may have more time than until July to visit me. I'm actually considering staying here another year...
I know, I know. I'm a California girl at heart and you guys are my home. But I dunno. I actually have been looking for jobs around here (and Hong Kong, which is also awesome in a different way) and the opportunities are just great here for foreign teachers...not to mention the economy back home is so crappy that finding a teaching job in another district would be damn near impossible for me. So I've just been applying everywhere. Gonna call LAUSD to see if I would still have my old job, or if I could take another year off, and I'm gonna look into SD schools too. Just spreading a wide net and see what I catch, who will have me.
But I do miss you all. My parents are sending me a package from home which I should get sometime next week. I should have asked you to drop some things over at my house for them to send, because you know what I miss? The music. I remember coming back from Argentina and hearing that song that Arlene claims to be hers and hearing the lyrics "Rodney King, beat it like a cop" and thinking, "wow, I miss the US." So I want some new music to put on my IPOD and dance around in my apartment to! FYI, they really love to play Akon in the clubs here. Like, all the time.
Ok, going out to dinner now. I need to send a more private email to you all, but I'll do that when I get back.
Awww, little Sofia is getting so big now, going to school and everything else I'm missing. You need to post some pictures, Di, especially when you drop her off on her first day at school. And I forgot you guys were going to Vegas and I'm missing it AGAIN! BOOOOOOOO to that! Just promise me you wont fall asleep facedown on the bathroom floor at whatever hotel lobby bathroom you were in, or let someone suck your toes after eating chicken wings at Hooters after you've walked barefoot down the strip - that's just not hygenic. Give a kiss to the bartenders at Carnival Court for me, though, and you better win that booty shaking contest again.
Things have been good here. I have really been enjoying myself, actually trying to learn the language now, hanging out and exploring different parts of the city on the weekends, making pretty good money for doing almost nothing. Oh except I did get pissed off at some of my classes yesterday and said "fuck" in class. It happens. But yeah, Beijing is a great city, and I really do wish you guys could come visit sometime. And you actually may have more time than until July to visit me. I'm actually considering staying here another year...
I know, I know. I'm a California girl at heart and you guys are my home. But I dunno. I actually have been looking for jobs around here (and Hong Kong, which is also awesome in a different way) and the opportunities are just great here for foreign teachers...not to mention the economy back home is so crappy that finding a teaching job in another district would be damn near impossible for me. So I've just been applying everywhere. Gonna call LAUSD to see if I would still have my old job, or if I could take another year off, and I'm gonna look into SD schools too. Just spreading a wide net and see what I catch, who will have me.
But I do miss you all. My parents are sending me a package from home which I should get sometime next week. I should have asked you to drop some things over at my house for them to send, because you know what I miss? The music. I remember coming back from Argentina and hearing that song that Arlene claims to be hers and hearing the lyrics "Rodney King, beat it like a cop" and thinking, "wow, I miss the US." So I want some new music to put on my IPOD and dance around in my apartment to! FYI, they really love to play Akon in the clubs here. Like, all the time.
Ok, going out to dinner now. I need to send a more private email to you all, but I'll do that when I get back.
Monday, March 30, 2009
Bitter sweet milestones and VEGAS dreams!
Let me first just say, YAY for The Bonita Girls blog!! Patricia, why didn't you have this idea earlier?
So, April 1st Sofia is officially not my baby anymore... she's my little girl! She starts preschool!! I'm torn. It such a good thing, yet it makes me feel old as all holy hell and I can't bare the though of my little miss getting older. Pretty soon she's gonna want a tattoo like Mommy's and car! She's starting a preschool just a couple of blocks away from our house and she's really excited. Last week we went and bought her a new Dora backpack and some tupperware for her lunch and she thinks she is totally hot shit. They have preschool from 9 am until 12 and after that it's pretty much free play, watching movies, playing outside, and doing anything else the normal 2 year old does. She can't wait to go to school. I just want time to freeze. A couple of you (Amber especially) know that I call Ardy "big boy" because he's big, but in a loving kinda way... well Sofia has now started calling her Papa "big boy" and evertime she does it, I laugh until my eyes well up with tears. She's simply hilarious. That little girl is for sure my daughter!
I can't concentrate on my work. I keep daydreaming about VEGAS! I absolutely can't wait. It should definitely be a road trip to remember. Amber found a vodka lounge made compleltely of ice. It's called Minus5 and we are definitely making a stop! Just a couple more weeks ladies, and we're taking over the city of sin!
My tattoo is healing well :) It's just about finished healing, but I think I scratched it in a couple of places, so I'm probably going to need to go and get a touch up. Thank god for a one month guarantee on a tattoo!
On a more serious note, my uncle is super ill. He's actually my Mom's uncle (my Grandpa's brother) and he's dying of cancer. It started out in his prostate and has spread to his head, bones, intestines, kidneys, and just about everywhere else you can imagine. We've always been really close to him, and now it shouldn't be too much longer until the battle ends. They gave him one to five months, but it seems as though he's tired and can't fight anymore. He's chosen not to have any treatment since he was told there is only a slight chance that the treatment will help. He was at home, with a hospice nurse, but was taken to San Diego Hospice this weekend because he's so ill. I went to see him yesterday, and took Sofia along with me so he could see her. He doesn't breathe as we all do. He will go without breathing for long periods of time and then all the sudden gasp a few times. I was ok going in there. I saw how fragile he looks and just kept telling myself that this is all part of life. When God wants your company, he calls on you. It's just the circle of life. The longer I was in the room, the harder it was. I held it together pretty well for a good amount of time, and then shortly after, I just completely lost it. I can't beleive it's all happening. This is the first time in my adult life... in a LONG time for that matter, that I have ever had to deal with someone close to me being so ill. I know pretty soon he'll be able to rest easy. It's just the time in between that makes it all so hard. This only reminds me how much I cherish life and all of you who are a part of it. It reminds me of how closely we came to losing Sofia when she had just begun her life. It's painful to even think about how life would be without her. I can't imagine taking a breathe without her here on this earth. The love of a child is much more powerful than I had ever thought! Moving on...
Sofia is STILL Constantly asking about Patricia. She even asked me to take her to China! That little girl is already asking for trips around the damn world... Lord help me!
Well... back to working... well, pretending to work for that matter ;) Can't wait for some more Bonita Girl blogs!!
xoxo,
Diandra
So, April 1st Sofia is officially not my baby anymore... she's my little girl! She starts preschool!! I'm torn. It such a good thing, yet it makes me feel old as all holy hell and I can't bare the though of my little miss getting older. Pretty soon she's gonna want a tattoo like Mommy's and car! She's starting a preschool just a couple of blocks away from our house and she's really excited. Last week we went and bought her a new Dora backpack and some tupperware for her lunch and she thinks she is totally hot shit. They have preschool from 9 am until 12 and after that it's pretty much free play, watching movies, playing outside, and doing anything else the normal 2 year old does. She can't wait to go to school. I just want time to freeze. A couple of you (Amber especially) know that I call Ardy "big boy" because he's big, but in a loving kinda way... well Sofia has now started calling her Papa "big boy" and evertime she does it, I laugh until my eyes well up with tears. She's simply hilarious. That little girl is for sure my daughter!
I can't concentrate on my work. I keep daydreaming about VEGAS! I absolutely can't wait. It should definitely be a road trip to remember. Amber found a vodka lounge made compleltely of ice. It's called Minus5 and we are definitely making a stop! Just a couple more weeks ladies, and we're taking over the city of sin!
My tattoo is healing well :) It's just about finished healing, but I think I scratched it in a couple of places, so I'm probably going to need to go and get a touch up. Thank god for a one month guarantee on a tattoo!
On a more serious note, my uncle is super ill. He's actually my Mom's uncle (my Grandpa's brother) and he's dying of cancer. It started out in his prostate and has spread to his head, bones, intestines, kidneys, and just about everywhere else you can imagine. We've always been really close to him, and now it shouldn't be too much longer until the battle ends. They gave him one to five months, but it seems as though he's tired and can't fight anymore. He's chosen not to have any treatment since he was told there is only a slight chance that the treatment will help. He was at home, with a hospice nurse, but was taken to San Diego Hospice this weekend because he's so ill. I went to see him yesterday, and took Sofia along with me so he could see her. He doesn't breathe as we all do. He will go without breathing for long periods of time and then all the sudden gasp a few times. I was ok going in there. I saw how fragile he looks and just kept telling myself that this is all part of life. When God wants your company, he calls on you. It's just the circle of life. The longer I was in the room, the harder it was. I held it together pretty well for a good amount of time, and then shortly after, I just completely lost it. I can't beleive it's all happening. This is the first time in my adult life... in a LONG time for that matter, that I have ever had to deal with someone close to me being so ill. I know pretty soon he'll be able to rest easy. It's just the time in between that makes it all so hard. This only reminds me how much I cherish life and all of you who are a part of it. It reminds me of how closely we came to losing Sofia when she had just begun her life. It's painful to even think about how life would be without her. I can't imagine taking a breathe without her here on this earth. The love of a child is much more powerful than I had ever thought! Moving on...
Sofia is STILL Constantly asking about Patricia. She even asked me to take her to China! That little girl is already asking for trips around the damn world... Lord help me!
Well... back to working... well, pretending to work for that matter ;) Can't wait for some more Bonita Girl blogs!!
xoxo,
Diandra
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