There's a first for everything...can you believe this is my first blog ever ladies!?!? Since my company blocked me from facebook and you tube, I'm using my precious time wisely by blogging ;). Anyway, as you know, these last couple weeks have been extremely hard for my family and I, especially with me. We lost a huge part of our family on April 30th. I still think about him every day and have cried every day since. No one ever told me that it would be this difficult. I mean, yes, he is a part of the family, but I never thought I would grieve this much for a pet. To think, when I was a child, I was scared of dogs. I really had a huge phobia. I remember I would run away or jump on the couch and cry just to get away from them. Man, I laugh every time I think about it.
It didn't really seem like it was my birthday either. It was just another day to me. Maybe because I was just so emotionally drained from all the crying or what, but the day really didn't phase me at all. Loosing Ag made me appreciate life and all that I have. I am very grateful to have the best friends that I do. I am very lucky to have the family that I do. I always tell myself that life is too short and to live it to the fullest. Sadly, I don't always live up to those words. I sometimes let the emotional, sad side of me take over. I start to contemplate my future...work, love, happiness etc... I question it all and I just get depressed. I know that God has a plan for me and for all of us, I just can't help but think the worse sometimes. I know, this is something I really need to work on...
To get my mind emotionally back on track to happiness...I have decided to tryout for Culture Shock's 25 and up hip hop group. Besides family and friends, dancing and music have always been my happiness. I have always had a passion for the arts and I think this is something I really need right now...
The days are getting better and I know it will get better in time...
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